I always felt that Narcolepsy was about college life - frat parties,
cramming for exams, etc.
Or maybe it's because I'm in college right now and I might be too
But anyways, i could relate Narcolepsy to college life:
" I read dead Russian authors volumes at a time.." could refer to the
intellectualism that you have to deal with in college - required reading
anyone? Or it could refer to literary fads and trends people pick up when
they go to school. Some things I've overheard from enthusiastic literature
fans at parties :
" Man, Hemingway was GOD! "
" This world woulda SUCKED if there had been no Jack Kerouac! "
" If e.e. cummings was alive today - I WOULD HAVE SEX WITH HIM ! "
Also I seem to picture a college party scene when Stephan sings " ..there's
a bone in my hand that connects to a drink, in a crowded room where the
Name: Katie Catalogna
Kevin Cadogen and Stephan wrote this song about Kevin's narcolepsy. How this
song came about is, I believe Kevin gave an account on what narcolepsy felt
like to him. Then I think Stephan used his creativity and developed Kevin's
narcolepsy world into song form. "There's a demon in my head that starts to
play a nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday. And I hold my
breath till it's more than I can take and I close my eyes and dream that I'm
awake". This is one of my favorite songs on the Third Eye Blind CD because
of the interesting lyrics. That is why I love Third Eye Blind's music so
much. Thier lyrics are what make their songs so great.
My thoughts of narcolepsy came when I inadvertently smoked heroin and crank together in a lovely little mixture they refer to as a speedball.
"And there's a demon in my head who starts to play."
You fight incessantly to stay awake but you have no control over your body, your mind and even your thoughts sometimes.
Remember the Nightmare on Elm street movies where Freddy has control over you in the dream state only? Narcolepsy is along that same line of psychology. When we dream, the unconscious mind reveals itself to us. It's like a venue for our mind to reveal it's inner most thoughts and desires. Sometimes, they are sexual... Sometimes they are serine. Sometimes they are frightening.
When I was under the influence of this drug... i was fine as long as my body was in motion. As long as I was physically moving and stimulating my mind with new things. When I did a task to long and it became monotonous, I would fall asleep for brief moments.. my mind wandered while in this "state" i know it did for I can remember dreaming. Yet I forget what I was dreaming because I was so embarrassed about falling asleep in the middle of the day.
i guess i always saw a more metaphorical interpretation. maybe it's
over analyzation, but to me, the song is about your own memories (be
they sad, humiliating, etc) slipping into your consciousness and taking
control of your brain, sending those stabbing impulses to your heart.
it's your brain forcing you to think about the things that bother you,
whether it was that really stupid thing you said in class or to a crush,
or something else silly like that, or a more serious thought. the ideas
to each person that induce serious self doubt or hatred, or sadness and
immense regret. "i write everything down except what's on my mind"
that's a really powerful phrase to me. it's that fear to even let
yourself know how you feel. it's the verbalization of the impossible
hope that if you don't know about it, it's not a problem. it's the
plight of the master self distracter. you can ignore yourself only so
long until you sort of lose yourself in a reinactment of the events that
plague you. i also thought that the seen of the drink and the clinking
glasses is just an example of self distraction, and the only real way to
avoid your brain's take over by haunting or upsetting memories (the
demon mentioned earlier in the song) is intoxication. I could probably
say a lot more, but i won't.
on a side note, i didn't know until i read this that other people had
that paralyzed after sleeping thing like i do. it's really the scariest
thing. the first time it happened i was asleep in the backseat of a
car, and when i woke up and couldn't move, i thought i was in a coma and
that no one would ever know i was conscious. the only way to get it to
go away was to go back to sleep. craziness.
I have actually experienced what Keven described. Sleep paralysis is
scary as HELL. I start to spaz and start thinking I'm going to die. To
sufficate or "drown" as they said. So I can kinda relate to the song. I
think it's just Stephan trying to put Kevins experience, that to some
can be indescribable, into words.
Name: laura tan
actually i think narcolepsy isn't even about the sleeping disorder. and
if it is, it is more about stephans obvious ADD (attention deficit
disorder) if you listen to the lyrics and how hes speaking on his
personality is so random and unpredictable, its totally speaking from a
total ADD kid. I know because I am one and if you read up on ADD in
adults maybe you'll agree with my theory on the song :
good link. when he says narcolepsy and is talking about falling asleep
its more talking about how people with ADD can't go to sleep they have
to keep doing something in fear of being bored.
anyways, key lyrics for this theory
"i'm on a train, but there's no one at the helm, and there's a demon in
my brain who starts to overwhelm"
"you lay me down... but i get no release"
"and there's a demon in my head who starts to play a nightmare tape loop
of what went wrong yesterday and i hold my breath till its more than i
that is totally about an ADD symptom is, quote the website
"I blurt out inappropriate comments without considering the possible
consequences. Later, when I take time to reflect on what I said, I beat
myself up for saying something so stupid"
and also the common known ADD symptoms is hyperactive people who can't
even control it anymore.. "demon in my brain"
"i write everything down except whats on my mind"
Personally, I think its about a person who gave up someone they loved,
and didnt realize how much they needed them untill the other person
found someone else.
"I'm on a train,
But there's no one at the helm,
And there's a demon in my brain
That starts to overwhelm,
And there it goes,
My last chance for peace,
I lay me down,
But I get no release,
I try to keep awake,
I try to swim beneath,
But still I find this narcolepsy slides,
Into another nightmare."
the demon in his brain is the memory of the person he let go, and he =
sees he has missed his chance to get her back.
"And there's a demon in my head
Who starts to play,
A nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday,
And I hold my breath
'Till it's more than I can take,
And I close my eyes and dream that I'm awake,
I try to keep awake"
once again the demon in his mind, he keeps thinking of what went wrong =
and the more he thinks about it, the more it hurts him, but he cant =
"I write everything down
Except what's on my mind,
Cause my greatest fear
Is that sucking sound,
And then I know that I will never get back out,
And there's a bone in my hand that connects to a drink,
In a crowded room where the glasses clink,
And I'll buy you a beer and we'll drink it deep,
Because that keeps me from falling asleep"
he cant tell anyone how he feels, and everytime he tries he gets afraid
it will hurt him more, so he pretends to be happy and pushes his
feelings deeper and deeper, and that keeps him from getting help, or
telling this person how he feels.
"How'd you like to be alone and drowning"
he feels like the person he loves has deserted him, and he loneliness is
starting to take over his life.
this is just what this song says to me, because this is happening to me
right now. its amazing how a song can change when it seems to be talkin
directly to you.