1000 Julys

Album:  Blue (1999)

Planning my attack just before you come back around
Maybe Iím wrong but I donít know how to back down
I never fit in, you know I donít belong
But you know that I donít care when you and me are strong
Cause Iím a vampire yíall
We toast the blood of our enemies
Youíre still scaring me, no, still scaring me, no
And we donít fit in
Wonder what itís like when youíre living with someone like me
Iím a freak and Iím nervous when itís easy
Feral days, and Iím sex crazed
I put it in with my animal ways
Thatís the sign I was born to be living in
I ran around and gave the finger to the Ritalin
You know you calm me down and I canít say why
You say goodbye and burn my eyes
A thousand Julyís
I hope you find
Iíd give you the words, but no words come to mind
But you turn me so cold, so I tell you lies
When you let me in, itís like a thousand Julys
When you left, I felt the drop like a boom
Wintertime all alone in your bedroom
I donít blame you and I know Iím not your friend
How we live, young American
I guess Iíve always known, Iíd be on my own,
Iíd be on my own, and I donít know why, I donít know why
A thousand Julys
I know youíll find
Iíd say the words, but no words come to mind
But you let me in, and I donít know why
But when you come, itís like a thousand Julys
A thousand Julys
Thatís what you are
Iíd tell you to come back now, but weíve gone too far
And weíve burned it out now
I donít even try
But I feel you gone
I lost a thousand Julys